Enlightenment

One of the advantages of a live devoid of human contact through extended periods of the day is copious time to philosophize. There have been a million times when I woke up every morning in a INR 285/day hotel room wondering WHY. I thought it was the money, it did feel good to make 150,000 on month one but the need actually was a little higher up Maslow's ladder.

The answer really came when I was popping a super expensive product into rural stores. I crossed launch records for the item quite comfortably by tweaking around the trade scheme. Each time I sold a whole case, I looked behind at myself a month earlier doing my best to push 3 pieces in a store. It was the product people were most skeptical of on Day1. They said it wont sell. It has caught my fancy.

Ideas I had are being received quite favorably. I know I am good at what I do. I have made my target a week ahead of schedule, and now have time to pursue my own pet projects. I will not lie... I would do my job at a pay cut. My boss offered me an expensive call girl & a bottle of Johnnie Walker if I hit my target. I wonder if I should take him up for the offer!!

There were periods in my life when I was seeing life in multi color. The colors unfortunately have narrowed to one. I know I would probably be able to write a great autobiography a few decades down the line, I only wonder if there is a place for me to write a few pages in color.

Yes, the answer to why I do things is glory. The need to hear the drums beat, and soak in the physical feeling of exhillaration. I set my own benchmarks, I like surpassing my expectations. My job just gives me a chance to boast to myself every night.

I am a blue collared worker. I have not seen a traffic signal in a long time. I can now cuss in 3 local dialects.

I have a dinner + movie date with my 200 pound pilot. I haven't seen a mirror in three days. I am self obsessed in my own damn way. Just count the number of 'I's.

Blogging to me is a cathartic experience. The outpouring of words lightens the heart, I expected to be putting finger to keyboard a lot more often. It is not the lack of time, it is the lowering of need.